Thursday, September 28, 2006
things that amuses me
|Saturday, September 16, 2006
the process of release
I really need to go for a run.
Whenever I felt like this at Guelph, I always went for a run to work it off.
What is "it"?
It is all the emotion: all the fear, frustration, confusion, desperation, uncertainty and impatience.
This emotional cocktail brews when I think about my past or my future. Or worst yet, both at the same time.
Past: I fucked this and this and this and this and that up. Grrr...
Future: I have none. It is a big big big black hole.
Congrats to me, I think I have reached a depressive state.
I do not want to eat. I do not want to have contact with anyone. This train of thought won't stop.
Now, how do I get out of it without going for a run to let the pressure escape?
Positive thinking.
Right. Positive thinking.
I have no future.
Crap.
No, not that.
Okay this isn't working.
Try #2, three guys tried to pick up at the bar last night.
Quantity good, quality bad. That sucks.
Okay, this isn't working either.
Try #3, my parents love me and I have friends who care.
Well, my parents' love sufficates me more than anything. And my friends are not within arms reach (not that it matters cuz I don't feel like being reached).
Crap, that didn't work either.
*breathe in*
*breathe out*
(repeat 5x)
*re-checks pressure*
Down.
Oh wow, I think venting worked. I think I'll grab supper. GO yummy yummy homemade pasta.
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Whenever I felt like this at Guelph, I always went for a run to work it off.
What is "it"?
It is all the emotion: all the fear, frustration, confusion, desperation, uncertainty and impatience.
This emotional cocktail brews when I think about my past or my future. Or worst yet, both at the same time.
Past: I fucked this and this and this and this and that up. Grrr...
Future: I have none. It is a big big big black hole.
Congrats to me, I think I have reached a depressive state.
I do not want to eat. I do not want to have contact with anyone. This train of thought won't stop.
Now, how do I get out of it without going for a run to let the pressure escape?
Positive thinking.
Right. Positive thinking.
I have no future.
Crap.
No, not that.
Okay this isn't working.
Try #2, three guys tried to pick up at the bar last night.
Quantity good, quality bad. That sucks.
Okay, this isn't working either.
Try #3, my parents love me and I have friends who care.
Well, my parents' love sufficates me more than anything. And my friends are not within arms reach (not that it matters cuz I don't feel like being reached).
Crap, that didn't work either.
*breathe in*
*breathe out*
(repeat 5x)
*re-checks pressure*
Down.
Oh wow, I think venting worked. I think I'll grab supper. GO yummy yummy homemade pasta.
Thursday, September 14, 2006
Jack, it has happened
And this is a response to the abortion ban in South Dakota.
taken from www.mikhaela.net
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
definition of a good day
1. Start of the school year for other people but not me. September is looking great. No midterm stress in October or final exam crunch before xmas.
2. Bought a bottle of my favourite perfume.
3. Picked up my lingerie order from Sears.
4. Picked off about five pounds of gorgeous green wine grapes fresh from the vine on my balcony.
5. A great work day that went by fast and painlessly. No deadline stress and no calls from lawyers who doesn’t have a life.
6. Enjoyed the season premier of House.
7. Finished off a wallpaper I have been working on for the past week. Loving the faster processing speed of my Toshiba.
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2. Bought a bottle of my favourite perfume.
3. Picked up my lingerie order from Sears.
4. Picked off about five pounds of gorgeous green wine grapes fresh from the vine on my balcony.
5. A great work day that went by fast and painlessly. No deadline stress and no calls from lawyers who doesn’t have a life.
6. Enjoyed the season premier of House.
7. Finished off a wallpaper I have been working on for the past week. Loving the faster processing speed of my Toshiba.
